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Fail in Sem 1

Sigh, failed a paper in my first sem.

It wasn't the Thermodynamics paper which I predicted I would fail. I got C+ for that whoo! Instead it was the Human Physiology paper.

I'm not too sad, though. The entire class failed as well. Lol.

I didn't expect to fail this paper at all. I thought it was okay in fact. Not sure what might have led to this. This subject is my only Faculty of Medicine subject. We combined with pharmacy and biomed sciences. However, whilst their group received assignment/tutorials/coursework, our group had none at all. We just attended lecture and sat for Finals. mother-in-law!

Anyway, I'm thinking they didn't give us marks for the continuous assessment. If that is the case it might be understandable.

Hopefully there was a mistake and they realize they actually forgot to give us the 40% marks.

Ah well,

So,

Grades for first sem : 5A's, 1B, 1C and (!@#*!!) 1D

Pointer: 3.19

I'm actually contented with my results. I really thought I was going to flunk in the Engineering course, being from Bio background and all.

I just hate Physics and i really hate.. retaking. blaah!

Eternal: The Movie

I would like to introduce you to the Eternal Project. No, the the revolutionary science experiment involving weird hormones and immortality. I'm referring to the project seems to go on forever.

But guess what? It's finally done!!! WOOOT! who's ur daddy?

This project was tiring and gruesome throughout the entire process. Getting the cast, editing the script, briefing the cast, determining the angles and location. I had to do all the planning single-handedly. Traveling from one shot to another was also a pain in the behind as we had locations scattered all over the island. Luckily, we managed to can the entire movie (thanks to my meticulous planning I may add) in just 5 days of shooting. Hah! Take that directors who spent years for shooting!

I'm sorry.

I take that back. Haha I adore you guys and your work. I seriously do.

Immediately after shooting ended, I flew (drove) down to KL to start my university life hence, halting the production of Eternal. There I played around and tried my hand at music video making for the first time and am quite pleased with the results. It is just so easy to make as compared to a full length film!

One semester passed and I'm back in my hometown for the holidays. I kept my meeting the cast and everyone is asking about Eternal. Aiyayai! I had no choice but to commence Eternal Project: Phase 2.

Most films have huge companies and studios just in charge of audio, sound effects. Some in charge of editing, some for synchronizing , then there's subtitles. But guess what? I'm left to do everything by myself! I don't even have a studio (haha)! All I have is ol' faithful iMovie program on my ever-lagging Mac and my bed. All the voiceovers had to be recorded on a handphone. So much for quality..

I spent days and nights (mostly nights) lugging through video after video. Cutting, pasting, and mother-effing synchronizing! Then there was sound effects, sound tracks and more synchronizing. Transitions and slow motion effects which had to be done separately on Final Cut Pro. After that I had to add on voice recordings and synchronized them. Finally there was the subtitles and yes, you guessed right. More synchronizing!! Sleep deprived and malnourished, I was cranky, moody and not to mention, smelly. (I gave up synchronizing near the end so the subtitles are a little off. Hah, take that you.. you synchronization-thingie!)

Finally it was done.

Ready for processing. Do you know that it takes so damn long to process a 45 minute movie? Took almost 4 hours. BAH-GA-GA-DU-DU-FARG! Then i had to cut the movie to separate segments because Youtube only allows a maximum of ten minutes per video. This is of course followed by the processing of these, bite size portions.

Finally was uploading on Youtube which takes even longer. Don't you just love and hate technology at the same time? I managed to get a trailer done in about an hour while waiting for all my videos to upload. (which took about 10 hours).

So here it is;

Trailer: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cuI7EiVQxqI

Part 1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Y4bnU3iyCk

Part 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NeBYCn6xy20

Part 3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gNHRJQfigxs

Part 4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Or5Zlp5JnU

Part 5 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M5MW2JrnLko

Part 6 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vchOCdyVwhI

Part 7 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r02juApPAsQ

I'm not very proud of the outcome but I guess this will suffice.

I would like to thank the entire cast for being supportive and sporting despite this being a voluntary project. Thank you, thank you very much! I would also like to express my gratitude to Kenneth Ooi, my trusted camera-man, always there with his steady hands.

There, I'm done.

I will say this, once and for all. Kenneth Tan Yu Shen, NO MORE MOVIES!!

..for now.

=P

Bald Times.

Lol. I found this old pic of me being bald back in Form 5 (I think). It was taken by a friend during a hotel stay during the holidays. I look so different without my current clump of hair that looks like a dead raccoon on my head. I'm gonna get my hair cut tmrw ( Ey, wait. Today. Monday)

Not bald, though. =P

beneath the hue.

I am sorry.

For things that I can't change. Maybe I am, maybe I'm not. Maybe I just don't give a damn much. I lack the ability to understand emotions. No, that's not right, I understand them. But comprehension of subject is not the same as feeling them. Other than the prowess to fathom the sentiments of others, I'm practically vacuous. It's like a void in me. At times I don't even know who I am. Why are such aspects of life oblivious to me no matter how hard I try to delve in them? Am I incapable of caring for anything other than myself?

This condition has been made aware to me for quite awhile now. I used to disregard it, even took pride in it but now I see if for what it really is. A plague.

I live a reasonably colorful life. But beneath the apparent hue, is just a pale taint of emptiness. Maybe I'm just emo for the sake of emo. Well that wouldn't be that far-fetched after all now would it?

I have no idea. I'm selfish. And fuck you. Who are you to judge??

My Guitar

She's there for me when I'm happy,

comforting me when I'm sad.

Always by my side,

even when i smell really bad. =P

She always says the right things,

to live my spirit up.

She may not be the best one out there,

but always number in my heart.

I ♥ you

HATE ME

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head

They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed

Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone

Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home

There's a burning in my pride, and a nervous bleeding in my brain

An ounce of peace is all I want for you, will you never call again?

And will you never say that you loved me, just to put it in my face?

And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with

The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again

In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night

While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate

You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take

So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind

And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave

Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made

And like a baby boy I never was a man

Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand

And then I fell down yelling, "Make it go away," just make a smile

Come back and shine just like it used to be

And then she whispered, "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow

Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.

For You

Donation Drive

5:55 am My alarm "Mad-NeYo" goes off

(snooze)

6.05am "We're fighting this war, even though both of us are losing"

(snooze)

6.15am "Girl I don't want to go to bed, Mad at you and I don't wan you to go to bed~"

(snooz...whaaaa?!!!)

Threw on some clothes, after my freezing cold shower and rushed down to meet them. Han Xin was already calling me and telling me to hurry up. My hair was in a mess. As always.

I was having a donation drive for Pesta Tanglung Kebudayaan 4th College today. I was assigned to the Kepong area along with Hui San and Noradilah.

Enthusiasm level : Non-existant

Upon reaching the designated market, we split up. Hui San started asking all the passerby's she met, Dillah went for the stall-owners and me, well, I went for a morning walk. Just like any other market, the Kepong market was packed, wet and smelly. Not that it bothered me, but I was really in a bad mood. This was largely due to events that occurred the day before and left me depressed and unmotivated. It is still affecting me greatly and I just can't seem to get it of my mind no matter how much i try. I just. Can't.

Another factor for me being down was that I have no passion for the cause of this drive.

I'm sure it's not just me, but everyone performs better in things that they have passion in. Having a drive to collect funds from public to organize a interracial cultural festival just doesn't strike me as something worth doing. I for one, would definitely not part with my dough for any Tom, Dick or Harry that comes to me with this reason. Therefore, it is hard for me to ask people to give me money for this reason.

How can I make people give me anything for something that I don't even believe in. Should it be for orphans, or disabled folks, then I would at least have the motivation to go out there and rake in some cash.

But not this.

Therefore, I just roamed around aimlessly like I usually do in search of something that would spark my interest.

Truth be told, I only joined this drive because I thought it would be fun to go out with fellow college-mates. But I get grouped with two strangers that I can't really click with. Maybe I'm just down.

I let my feet take me wherever they wanted to go, and soon enough I was out of the market and walking around the housing areas. Next I reached a secondary school there and I wanted to go in to explore but it was locked. The idea of intrusion occurred to me but I was just at an all time low, so I gave it a pass. I walked and I walked. I took a picture of pigeons taking off. I walked even more.

I soon found myself at the highway and realized that even the area post-code is different. So I walked back.

Hui San got RM125 from today's drive, Dillah raked in RM153 and I.. almost got hit by a car on my way back. I'm sure the Marketing Biro is going to be very unhappy about my income.

Maybe I need to get some help from these guys.

"Nah"

A nice looking man walked pass me and I thought, fine why not? Let's give it a go.

"Good morning, sir. I'm from University Malaya (fuck 4th College). We're having a cultural festival, and I would like to ask if you would give a little contribution as we're really short of funds."

"Umm, sure ok ok."

(Checks his pocket)

"Oh, my wallet is with my wife and she's still in the market."

"Oh."

"Okay, never mind. Thank you sir."

Well, at least I tried.

Sigh

That simple word that I loathe.

The simple word that my maid loves.

Is now the only thing I can say.

After everything.

And more.

why.

My First Finals.

Supposed to study but I got distracted so here I am.

Now, let's blog!!

Well, as you (people who know about this blog) already know, I'm having my Semester One Final Exams. Seven bloody papers stretched over three gruesome weeks.

5th Nov - KUEP 1133 Human Anatomy Sytem 1

6th Nov - KXEX 1144 Engineering Calculus

9th Nov - KUEP 1131 Statics

10th Nov - KUEP 1134 Human Physiology System

11th Nov - KUEP 1135 Computer System

13th Nov - KUEP 1132 Thermodynamics

18th Nov - KXEX 1110 Foundation of Material Science

I guess I can say I'm pretty much relieved that two of my most dreaded papers are now a thing of the past.

These are none other than Statics and Human Physiology System. Ergh, I hate these subjects, especially Statics. However, the papers weren't as though as I expected. To be honest, I thought they were reasonably.. reasonable.

(That doesn't make sense so let's scrap off that line).

Having said that, I screwed up these two papers pretty badly during my MidTerm (I thought not important marrr...) so I don't think I'll be seeing any A's from this two mothers. Oh wells.

There's still Thermodynamics which I loathe even more.

My Statics finals question paper

They don't allow you to bring handphones or notes into the examination hall, but they ALLOW CAMERAS. You just have to let the invigilators browse through the content to make sure there's no hidden notes in your camera. Don't you find that interesting? Of course I am just bluffing and that whole statement above was fake.

Lalalala~

Ok let's see. What else to blog about?

Oh yea! During the study week, my roommate (Fong Hou) and I launched a rat-trapping spree. We caught 5 rats in 5 days. Not bad eh.

Day 1

Day 3a

Day 3b

Day 4

Day 5

No, Fong Hou's not the rat. He's holding it.

On the 6th day however, our rat trap got stolen while we put it out to dry at the volleyball court. Some bloody bastards must have stole it. So Fong Hou and I launched on a thief-hunt instead. Two days later, Fong Hou sharp eyes came a upon rat trap similar to ours through a slight opening in one of the malays room. He didn't dare to pursue further and so he rushed back to our room and asked me to go get it.

Ooorah! Let's go!

If you steal from me, you better be prepared to pay the price! Somebody's going to get hurt.

The door wasn't locked so I just barged in and guess what I see.

Two. Malay. Chao. Ah. Gua's.

Disappointed with the culprit's identities, I questioned them on the trap. They admitted their offense, and apologized profusely. Being a gentleman, I took no further action and merely told them to wash it thoroughly and return it to my room by that day.

What was I supposed to do? They were Ah Gua's!

Well that's that. They returned the trap (washed nicely) two days later.

Anything else? Nothing that I can think of at the moment. Oh yea, kachui asked me to post up my creative innovation for drying clothes when there is no more space to hang in the dry yard. Here it is:

Pretty neat, eh?

This seems like a pretty long post, it's funny I have so much time to write nonsense during my exam week. OH that reminds me, I have a Computer System paper tomorrow and I haven't read a single thing about it. I guess I should get started if I want that A. haha!

The After-Post

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Not studying again are we, boy.

Only a few days to my finals and I have barely touched my studies. Well it can't be helped, I do possess the will power of a bean-sprout after all. My ability of finding something else to do instead of studying is phenomenal. Be it shooting silly videos (that I shall not publish), walking tenths of kilometres, catching rats, or composing songs about my roommate, I've been there, done that.

Anyway, I've just recently came across quite a number of blogs of my acquaintances and I must say I'm really surprised by them. It's interesting how people are when they write about themselves, their view on things. Things that generally, aren't said out loud. It's nice to have a different perspective to what they normally portray themselves as in person. Maybe that's what blogs are about anyway, so I'm just crapping.

I initially wrote a considerably long post a few days back. However, I got too engrossed in my so-called "moment of divulgence" that I wrote more things that I should have. Spoke of things that were better left unspoken. Tales of my "dark, twisting and unspeakable" past. So for the sake of privacy and most importantly, self-preservation, that entry was chucked into my personal collection of scribblings along with my other not so politically correct posts. You'll NEVER see it! muahahahahhahahahahhahahaaergh#@!*!#^%! chokes!

*ahem.

Well enough with the darker than thou tales of my history. It is not that I am a villainous murderer writing his journal about all his previous kills. (Or am I?) =P

If the reader (that's you, dimwit) is wondering what the topic/theme of this post is, there is none. I'm writing this post just for the sake of writing a post. Lame indeed but like I've said, it is more fulfilling than studying for finals. To me, at least.

I guess I should start on Thermofluid- Refridgeration Cycles (An Engineering Approach) now. Oh, the joy!

對的人

It's amazing what the simple words of song can convey.
You can't really say they are simple though,
Every word carries a meaning, a definition, a story.
Maybe that is why lyrics mean so much to me,
It is the confession of your secrets,

It is the sound of your feelings,

It speaks what your voice can't.
♥

對的人


你問在我心中

ni wen zai wo xin zhong
You ask my heart

是否還苦惱
shi fou hai ku nao
if it's still distress.

那次受傷
na ci shou shang
That time (when I) was hurt,

否決了愛的好
fou jue le ai de hao
(I've) overruled the good in love.

謝謝你的關照
xie xie ni de guan zhao
Thank you for your concern,

我一切都好
wo yi qie dou hao
Everything is fine.

一個人
yi ge ren
Being alone

不算困擾
bu suan kun rao
Isn't all that bad

愛雖然 很美妙
ai sui ran hen mei miao
Although love is very beautiful

卻不能為了寂寞
que bu neng wei le ji mo
(I) can't let loneliness

又陷了泥沼
you xian le ni zhao
Cause me to fall again

愛要耐心等待
ai yao nai xin deng dai
(You) need to wait patiently

仔細尋找
zi xi xun zhao
(and) look attentively for love.

感覺很重要
gan jue hen zhong yao
Feeling is very important.

寧可空白了手
ning ke kong bao le shou
(I'd) rather be empty-handed

等候一次
deng hou yi ci
(and) wait next time

真心的擁抱
zhen xin de yong bao
for a real embrace.

我相信在這個世界上
wo xiang xin zai zhe ge shi jie shang
I believe that in this world,

一定會遇到
yi ding hui yu dao
(I) will meet

對的人出現
dui de ren chu xian
the right person appearing

在眼角
zai yan jiao
in the corner of my eye.



那次流過的淚
na ci liu guo de lei
The last time I shed tears


讓我學習到
rang wo xue xi dao
It allowed me to learn

如何祝福
re he zhu fu
how to give my blessings

如何轉身不要
ru he zhuan shen bu yao
(and) how to turn away.

在眼淚體會到
zai yan lei ti hui dao
Beneath (my) tears

與自己擁抱
yu zi ji yong bao
I found my embrace.

愛不是一種需要
ai bu shi yi zhong xu yao
Love is not an essential,

是一種對照
shi yi zhong dui zhao
it's merely a kind of comparison.



愛雖然 很美妙
ai sui ran hen mei miao
Although love is very beautiful

卻不能為了寂寞
que bu neng wei le ji mo
(I) can't let loneliness


又陷了泥沼
you xian le ni zhao
Cause me to fall again


愛要耐心等待
ai yao nai xin deng dai
(You) need to wait patiently

仔細尋找
zi xi xun zhao
(and) look attentively for love.

感覺很重要
gan jue hen zhong yao
Feeling is very important.

寧可空白了手
ning ke kong bao le shou
(I'd) rather be empty-handed

等候一次
deng hou yi ci
(and) wait next time

真心的擁抱
zhen xin de yong bao
for a real embrace.

我相信在這個世界上
wo xiang xin zai zhe ge shi jie shang
I believe that in this world,

一定會遇到
yi ding hui yu dao
(I) will meet

對的人出現
dui de ren chu xian
the right person appearing




能願意為了一份愛
neng yuan yi wei le yi fen ai
For the sake of love

付出去多少

fu chu qu duo shao

how much are you willing to stake

然後得到多少並不計較
ran hou de dao duo shao bing bu ji jiao
(And will you) not hold a grudge on how much (you'll) get in return?

當我想清楚了時候
dang wo xiang qing chu le shi hou
When I've thought clearly,

我就算已經準備好
wo jiu suan yi jing zhun bei hao
I'm already ready

放手去愛
fang shou chu ai
To let go and love

海闊天高
hai kuo tian gao
boundlessly.


(Crazy woman shouting)


愛要耐心等待
ai yao nai xin deng dai
(You) need to wait patiently

仔細尋找
zi xi xun zhao
(and) look attentively for love.

感覺很重要
gan jue hen zhong yao
Feeling is very important.

寧可空白了手
ning ke kong bao le shou
(I'd) rather be empty-handed

等候一次
deng hou yi ci
(and) wait next time

真心的擁抱
zhen xin de yong bao
for a real embrace.

我相信在這世界上
wo xiang xin zai zhe shi jie shang
I believe that in this world,

一定會遇到
yi ding hui yu dao
(I) will meet

對的人出現
dui de ren chu xian
the right person appearing



愛要耐心等待
ai yao nai xin deng dai
(You) need to wait patiently

仔細尋找
zi xi xun zhao
(and) look attentively for love.

感覺很重要
gan jue hen zhong yao
Feeling is very important.

寧可空白了手
ning ke kong bao le shou
(I'd) rather be empty-handed

等候一次
deng hou yi ci
(and) wait next time

真心的擁抱
zhen xin de yong bao
for a real embrace.

我相信在這個世界上
wo xiang xin zai zhe ge shi jie shang
I believe that in this world,

一定會遇到
yi ding hui yu dao
(I) will meet

對的人出現
dui de ren chu xian
the right person appearing

在眼角
zai yan jiao
in the corner of my eye..

The Walk

Today started late with me rising an hour past twelve. It was going to be another boring day again, the same old routine, the same old view, the same old..nasi goreng tak sedap(TM) in Dewan Makan. Sigh, I decided to do something different, skipped lunch and went for a walk. With no destination in mind, I just went wherever my legs took me and I must say, the journey turned out to be worthwhile. Unlike the usual days where I am rushing to class, I was taking a mere stroll on campus grounds with no urgency whatsoever. It was a different experience and i noticed that the grounds was a pretty place after all.

As I walked, I came upon many crossroads during this journey.

Different paths leading to different tales and promises.

With no guide or purpose

Just an aimless person walking on this lonely day.

During this journey, I was also surprised about something someone said. That I have changed.

Truth be told I've always wanted the most out of life and have been known to do radical things just for the thrill. Rational thinking usually do not exist during this impulsive acts of randomness.

Lol, this is probably why my best friend is always afraid when I give him my trademark "I'm-Up-To-No-Good" look.

Apart from innocent, reckless, at times life-risking attempts at fun, there is also a darker side to my past.

Now, I'm not bringing this up to justify my mistakes, there are a lot of things that I have done in the past that I am not proud of.

People that I have hurt, people who I have disappointed.

But somehow all those little parts, good or bad, are what makes me who I am today. Some people, even those who are close to me fail to understand that I am me, and there are parts of me that I just can't change.

I am imperfect. I have flaws.

It's like. I have this tendency to break everything around me. Everything I truly care for.

Maybe I am born this way, maybe I was shaped this way by my upbringing, or maybe I'm just still learning..

Perhaps I'm just a very bad person and you all should just stay away from me.

Ah. Well.

Oh look, pretty flowers!

You know, one shouldn't think so much when walking in unfamiliar places.

I don't even know where I am now.

When you come across places like this it's about time you ask yourself,

ARE YOU FRIGGIN' LOST?

Lol thankfully I managed to maneuver my way out of the wilderness back to civilization. By then I was already experiencing severe dehydration and the only thing "special" about this memorable journey was the feeling of the shirt on my back sticking to very sweaty body of mine. Why did I even take on this stupid journey in the first place?

I finally made it to a sign saying MidValley City! Food!! Liquid!! AirCond!!

It's so unreal. Just like a dream come true.

I probably looked like a wet dog entering MidValley, dripping from top to toe but hey, I couldn't care less. I was where I wanted to be. In these air conditioned aisles of endless possibilities.

I decided to pamper myself with a decent meal so for the very first (and probably last) time in my life, I entered Italiannies of The Gardens.

Bloody expensive.

At the end of the day I walked back to campus (I know you're probably thinking what the f*ck is wrong with this idiot), feeling contented with a well wasted day. Nothing much was in my mind, just the longing for my soft pillow in my little room where I can coil up and get some rest.

Ah, that is the story of my Walk.

~The End ♥

Sketching Autumn

Before:

End:

언제까지 슬픈 운명 우릴갈라 놓아도 ♥

(Click on pictures to enlarge)

A beautiful yet tragic story. Currently in love with this song. 756248 7232!

罗志祥 - 好朋友

Luo Zhi Xiang - Hao Peng You

(Good Friend)

像两首节拍不同的歌

xiang liang shou jie pai bu tong de ge

Just like the contrasting tempos of different songs

却又同时被爱情合奏

que you tong shi bei ai qing he zou

Brought together in the wool of love

旋律勉强着

xuan lui mian qiang zhe

The forceful tune plays on

愉快不能够假装快乐

yu kuai bu neng gou jia zhuang kuai le

Fulfilment cannot portray happiness

你心中有宽阔的天空

ni xin zhong you kuan kuo de tian kong

There's a vast sky in your heart

但空气还稀薄

deng kong qi hai xi bo

but the warmth in the air is absent

曾经以为等待会改变什么

ceng jin yi wei deng dai hui gai bian shen me

once I thought that waiting would change something

你总会属于我

ni zong hui shu yu wo

That you'll soon be mine

但是最后时间证明了

dan shi zui hou shi jian zheng ming le

But in the end, time made me realize

你只喜欢我

ni zhi xi huan wo

You merely like me

Chorus

你说我比较像你的好朋友

ni shuo wo bi jiao xiang ni de hao peng you

You said I am just like a good friend

只是不小心拥抱着

zhi shi bu xiao xin yong bao zhe

just because of that accidental hug

你道歉 你难过

ni dao qian ni nan guo

You apologised, you're sad

于是我给你笑容

yu shi wo gei ni xiao rong

but I gave you a smile

谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

shui zai hu wo de xin hai hui bu hui ji mo

Who would care about my lonely heart?

如果爱情是五线谱

ru guo ai qing shi wu xian pu

If love was like a 5 lines music score

我只希望用全音符

wo zhi xi wang yong quan yin fu

I wish to use those notes

吟唱出 爱上你

yin chang chu ai shang ni

To sing that I've fallen in love with you.

那完整的幸福

na wan zheng de xing fu

that completes the happiness (of mine)

当你的心没有耳朵

dang ni de xin mei you er duo

But your heart has no ears

即使我为你唱这歌

ji shi wo wei ni chang zhe ge

Even if I sang that song

你也只看见我哭了

ni ye zhi kan jian wo ku le

All you'll ever see are my tears

Chorus

你说我比较像你的好朋友

ni shuo wo bi jiao xiang ni de hao peng you

You said I am more of a good friend

只是不小心拥抱着

zhi shi bu xiao xin yong bao zhe

Just because of that accidental hug

你道歉 你难过

ni dao qian ni nan guo

You apologised, you're sad

于是我给你笑容

yu shi wo gei ni xiao rong

but I gave you a smile

谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

shui zai hu wo de xin hai hui bu hui ji mo

who would care about my lonely heart?

曾经以为等待会改变什么

ceng jin yi wei deng dai hui gai bian shen me

once I thought that waiting would change something

你总会属于我

ni zong hui shu yu wo

That you'll soon be mine

但是最后时间证明了

dan shi zui hou shi jian zheng ming le

But in the end, time made me realised

你只喜欢我

ni zhi xi huan wo

You merely like me

Chorus

你说我比较像你的好朋友

ni shuo wo bi jiao xiang ni de hao peng you

you said I am just like your good friend

只是不小心拥抱着

zhi shi bu xiao xin yong bao zhe

just because of that accidental hug

你道歉 你难过

ni dao qian ni nan guo

you apologised, you're sad

于是我给你笑容

yu shi wo gei ni xiao rong

but I gave you a smile

谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞

shui zai hu wo de xin hai hui bu hui ji mo

who would care about my lonely heart?

你说我是你最好的朋友

ni shuo wo shi ni zui hao de peng you

You said I am your very best friend

却不应该再拥抱着

que bu ying gai zai yong bao zhe

So there's no need for hugs

你退缩 你难过

ni tui suo ni nan guo

You back away, you're sad

你使我放开双手

ni shi wo fang kai shuang shou

You made me let go of my hands

不在乎我的心

bu zai hu wo de xin

who would care about my heart

会永远更寂寞

hui yong yuan geng ji mo

Being lonely forever.

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That tiny hand,

Fragile and light,

Dancing through sand,

I was her guide.

Those little fingers,

Rested on mine,

That tiny laughter,

So subtle and fine.

Our little game,

Of left and right,

A little flame,

Warming the night,

Soft whispers in the breeze,

Carefree words of ease,

She giggles as I tease,

I hoped it never ceased

No long winded story,

Or deep past to trace,

That one simple memory,

Brings a smile to my face,

In our own silence,

No one was there,

And for that moment,

She was my..

=)

(Best read with the accompaniment of Canon In Strings)

Today is Not a good day.

It isn't.

.

This is not a proper post. It is a random compilation of tiny parts ripped off from my old and unpublished posts. Little pieces of...

THOUGHTS

From start to finish I wonder why

The cuts look good in this messed up lie

The blood that trickles down my arm

People all stare at the boy who self-harms:-

原来没有考试是这样闷的

.yESterday toDAy tomorrOW.

3rd fret

this is the story of us all

If you asked of my memories

you may count that day

you and me, sat and smiled.

D A B#m F# G D G A

a Beautiful Revolution

WHO AM I TO JUDGE HIM

WHEN THIS IS WHAT I SEE IN MY REFLECTION

Come on, shed those tears and fight again

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turning of the silent Seventh Chapter

as the night chills the scene

A cold hand lays unmoving

Unnerving the watching eye.

A boy asked his sister. What do you want to be reborn as.

The girl smiled and replied, "A tree, so that once I put my roots down I won't ever be separated from where I belong"

THIS ISN'T ME!!

Forever drowning, we

mouth our

hostilities,

letting

the air out of our ruins

D

(silent)

will that be all it will ever be?

...

Your small round shoulders
I hated not being able to hug you

Your smile as you look at me and laugh
Is so overwhelming that it makes me happy
Is it all right to hope, to come even closer
Like this moment now when I feel your breath

Even though we are separated by a sad destiny
I won’t make your heart cry again

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I'll be facing a tough Calculus paper tomorrow so what am I doing here? Haha like I just told lil bear, I need a break from studying. Not that I've been studying really hard or anything but it's always nice to steal away from work every once in awhile.

Truth be told I was singing along to 以父之名 (Yi Fu Zhi Ming) that was playing on my headsets. This prompted me to revisit my homemade MV of that particular song and also 半島鐵盒 (Ban Dao Tie He). Just watching these two videos put a huge smile on my face as i reminisce on the days of shooting with Kacheng and FangHao. Those two really looked adorable in the MV.

I miss the good ol' Suzuran days with Chan, Alvin, Nic, Ade and Aanand as well. I long for those late night shisha outings with the Eternal crew, Bern, Tee, Bear (another Bear), Twins, Shenway..Those Form 6 dunderheads (Sisley being the main), the Prefectorial Board (SpermFren & TomKurus), haha pretty much everything and everyone.

I guess being alone really makes me appreciate those who before this, I took for granted.

Two friends of mine got into a dispute recently and things got really heated up. It's always sad to see two people fighting but much more so, when they're both your brothers.

4th College has always been known for it's different factions and clicks even amongst the same race. It is sometimes a pain in the backside ( a new word Qing just learnt from me today) to have to put on different masks when hanging with different groups. Badmouthing seems to be the new in-thing as well, with a huge gossip group created to defame a certain individual of the same college. Now I'm not siding anyone but I do feel all this public defamation should end as it is none of their business how someone leads his social life. As for claims of being caring and concerned for the so-called victims, I believe it's nothing but a publicity stunt for himself. Well that's that. I do not want to start another war now do I? =)

I should probably get back to figuring out how to integrate and differentiate irritating equations.

P/S- FangHao just got back and is sniffing his sweaty pants. How delightful.

A little dog-ear

Well, I initially wanted to write a number of things here tonight, but something cropped up and so I shall save those contents for a following entry (If I remember). Anyway, I just found out that the layout of this Journal isn't really viewed in the manner of my preferences. It seems the font Zapfino, which works fine on Macs, cannot be viewed by Windows OS. This is a screen shot of what my blog SHOULD look like. If this indeed what you see then that's great. If not, get a Mac.